Part 3

VI.

The Chestnut Tree was almost empty. I sat in my usual corner by the poster of Big Brother. The telescreen suddenly announced to listen in at fifteen thirty. I had a feeling that is was bad news about the disputed territories. Then I saw her not ten meters away. I got up and followed her. She had changed, there was a scar on her face but it was covered by her hair, and her waist had grown bigger. When we finally talked, we said we had betrayed each other but it doesn't matter because in the face of terror, you only care about yourself. And now neither of us think the same of each other or ever will again. Suddenly a trumpet had pierced the air. It was the bulletin. The trumpet meant victory. And victory it was. We had take control of all of Africa and brought the war closer to its end. I stared up at the picture of Big Brother. He had done this. I had come to love Big Brother.

Part 3

V.

I was led into a room where I was strapped upright in a chair with two tables in front of me. O'Brien came in and told me that Room 101 is the worst thing in the world. At that moment, two guards came in, one carrying a cage with probably an unimaginable horror in it. O'Brien says the worst thing in the world varies from person to person. I my case the worst thing in the world is rats. That is what is in the cage in front of me. I tried desperately to not meet my fate. I asked what I must do but O'Brien just inches the cage closer to my face. I am at the point of desperation now! There is only one way I can get out of this treatment. I must betray the one I love. Without much thought, I yell: "Do it to Julia! Do it to Julia! Not me! Julia! I don't care what you do to her. Tear her face off, strip her to the bones. Not me! Julia! Not me!" I heard the cage door click closed. I was safe.

Part 3

IV.

Prison life became much better, they fixed me up with a new pair of overalls, new teeth, frequent meals and even warm water to bathe with. They had replaced my diary after I was captured and I took it and started writing. I wrote three things: Freedom is Slavery, Two and Two make Five, and God is Power. I accepted everything now. Oceania was at war with Eurasia, it had always been. Jones, Aaronson, and Rutherford were guilty of the crimes they committed. The past is alterable. I knew I would be killed soon. I didn't know when it would come, but I imagined myself walking down a hallway and just being shot in the back of the head. O'Brien entered my room, and told me to come to him. He tells me that there is little wrong with me intellectually, but I have failed emotionally. He asks me how I feel towards Big Brother. I said I hated him. He said that was good. I fail to see the goos side of that. But I must love him. I must go to Room 101.

Part 3

III.

O'Brien tells me there are three stages to my reintegration: learning, understanding and acceptance. I am to learn of the second stage. He tells me he had a part in writing The Book and that I understand how the government maintains power but what I don't why the government maintains its power. This is what I must learn to do. He tells me the answer the the question. The Party maintains power solely for the purpose of having power. They have no caring for the welfare of others. O'Brien speaks of a "perfect" society built on hatred and cruelty. This world cannot live on its own, it would self destruct. But O'Brien is witty and will comeback with a remark that leaves me stunned every time. I cannot win. I tell him that the spirit of man will defeat the Party. So he tells me to get up, take my clothes off and look at myself in the mirror. I am hideous, I am missing teeth and I am bruised and scarred everywhere. I would not consider myself a man at all. I am beaten, i am broken to the point of no return. i ask when will I be killed. He told me it may be a long time but he assured me. I will be killed.

Part 3

II.

The days were miserable. I was beaten almost every day but I could not confess until it became too much. But the beatings became less frequent and later, I was moved off into a room where I was strapped to a chair with various dials and O'Brien at my side. I knew this is where we would meet, the place with n darkness. O'Brien gave me a demonstration of the chair's electrical frequency. It was extremely painful but O'Brien said that was only at forty. It could and will go all the way up to one hundred if I don't cooperate. The questioning begins and I tell him what I think but he immediately says what I think is wrong and turns the dial. Finally, he asks what two plus two equals. I say four but he sends a jolt all over my body. He tells me whatever Big Brother believes is true and he believes two plus two equals five therefore, it is true. He repeatedly asks me the same question and no matter what I say is followed by a shock. I say four, it is wrong. I say five, he still shocks me because he knows I don't really think that. I want to believe that two plus two equals five but I am resistant. I simply cannot. I finally answer I don't know and he says that's better. He asks why they would bring me here. I answer to confess and to punish but I am wrong. He says it is to cure any person. But I don't want to be cured. We reach the point where I am able to ask him any question. I ask what is in Room 101. But he simply answers, "You know what is in Room 101." He motioned to the man in the white coat who stuck a needle in my arm and I fell into a deep sleep.

Part 3

I.

I woke up. I had no idea where I was. My best guess was the Ministry of Love because there were no windows whatsoever. I had pains in my stomach which had been there ever since they had thrown me in the van and drove me away. But I was also hungry, I did not know how long I had been in this cell, it could be hours, days, or even weeks. I took a seat in the narrow bench and sat still for hours. Every so often, guards would come and throw a person in the cell with me or order someone to come with them to Room 101. There was a telescreen watching my every move and it would yell at me whenever I made any sudden or unexpected movements. I was trapped. For how long I would be in here, I did not know. But I did know one thing, Room 101 was certain. Then O'Brien came in. I was surprised to see him captured as I am. But he was not forcibly taken like I was, he was part of the Thought Police! I couldn't believe it! Now the guard next to him took his truncheon and beat me on the elbow. I grabbed my elbow in pain. But I knew this was just the beginning of my torture.

Part 2

X.

I had just finished reading the Book and started to relax when the Thought Police came out from behind the picture to take us away. This is Mr. Charrington's fault. He is a part of the Thought Police and he gave us away. We are ordered to stand back to back without touching, but I can still feel Julia shaking. We are whisked away quickly where we are sure to go through torture and confession. I hope Julia will not go through what I will most likely have to.